Catharsis

I used to be so heart broken when my ex cheated on me - but last night I found myself praying for his happiness - it was quite... sublime, peaceful, and I was granted understanding that came out of no where. Last night I finally forgave him. Quite shocking for my type who used to never forgive cheaters or those who wronged me.

But it's so funny, it just happened - why should I be mad if he broke my heart, and if he and I were never meant to be? Why should I be mad if there's someone out there better suited for him - someone compatible with him, someone who'll make him happy the way I couldn't? I mean, don't I want the same for myself? Isn't that what people want? Indeed, although these circumstances hurt the pride, tears should never be shed.

So I stopped worrying all together - about everything - trying to put assumptions to rest and let whatever happens, happen. No longer do I care about being cheated on because why would I stop a heart from meeting its one true Love? Why should I stop someone from meeting/dating/marrying someone who they're compatible with? Why should I keep stalling the inevitable? EXACTLY!!!! I shouldn't.

It makes so much sense! So much sense! And I do have so much going for me right now and I don't want to be young and foolish. I still have a ton of growing up to do because there are a ton of things I still need to understand - one of them is Love.